Where I….

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Feb 202019

Fourteen years have seen us be partners, but today we celebrate twelve years as husband and wife. My heart still holds onto that thin, thread bare string that connects our hearts together. Hoping that my mind can overcome the faults which drive us this way.

 Posted by at 12:11 am

Changing, Staying in Love

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Feb 072019

When you look inside my heart,
what do you see there now?
is it blackened like the start?
or is it shaped like a star.

Wanting to lead you home,.
Didn’t want to see you go.
My feelings have never changed,
But it doesn’t mean I’m the same.

Perfect is the word you used to describe your pain.
You told me you’d never let yourself feel that way again.
Changing your mind isn’t about saying the words.
It’s about the actions you see me take towards

Changing, only for the good.
Changing, to be a better love
Staying, in touch with my heart.
Staying, in touch from the start.

Realized much to late,
That our ideas were the same.
Should have listened to you more
to know what was in store

Didn’t think things through enough,
I should have supported what you thought
My mistake was taking you for granted,
Instead of taking you for who you weren’t

Over exposed, layed bare for all to see.
Unwrapped, layers peeling back.
Tracing the outlines of your face
I remember why I feel in love in the first place.

My criticism was a mistake,
I hold all the blame
But that led to your contempt
Which is more of the same.

You put up your defense
I put up a wall
To keep each of us out
These Four problems that caused it all.

Finding a better way
To communicate our style, your smile
I need you to understand
I’m in this race, at this pace for every mile.

Until our love is healed,
Until our dreams are whole
Share equally with you my life
I promise to uphold

Changing, want to show you that I have
Changing, not the same person that you’ve had.
Staying, with you all my feelings are yours
Staying, in our family fighting through together, everything that life has in store.

 Posted by at 9:09 pm

Separation Anxiety

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Dec 312018

Separation Anxiety

Being alone, is worse when there is nothing to get you by.
Confused state of mind, not getting better over time.
Broken down, without much to look forward to, always going backwards, slipping.
Dazzled in blindness, I didn’t want to see it coming, it still felt sharp when you told me.

Breaking ties, one at a time, some letters missing, calling things different. Not a big deal in your eyes.
Every cut, every nick separates the feelings we had, our time so long to build, easy to tear down.
I just hope that there’s more to me than a broken spirit, that can learn to live.
Belonging, and hoping, love will.

Creative delight, insight into my blight.
My nervous bite, that leaves me less than me.

My hopes, my dreams are uneven and not in this light
You’re not looking forward to what could be.

 Posted by at 6:21 pm

Saying Goodbye to an old friend… TheGamer

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Sep 102018

Today (or rather this week) I

say goodbye to an old friend. TheGamer! She was a  beauty of a PC.. I purchased her in 2011, almost 8 years ago. I also replaced her original motherboard with one that I could finally overclock and  took her from 3.4Ghz to 4.43Ghz. She was a dream of a computer  after replacing parts as needed.  I transition now to an I7-7700K with a GTX 1080 and two 4k Monitors.


 (Video of PC on and running)

  • Fractal Design Arc Midi R2 Black Window High-Airflow ATX Midtower Case
  • ASUS P8Z77-M PRO LGA 1155 Intel Z77 Motherboard
  • 16GB Corsair RAM (4×4)
  • Intel i5-2500K 3.3Ghz Over Clocked @4.443GHz
  • Thermaltake Water 2.0 Performer C 120mm AIO Liquid Cooling System CPU Cooler
  • 2 Corsair Air Series SP120 Quiet Edition (In Push/Pull)
  • ASUS GeForce GTX 1060 DUAL-GTX1060-O6G 6GB
  • EVGA SuperNOVA 850 B2, 80+ BRONZE 850W, Semi Modular Power Supply
  • 250GB – Samsung 840 Series Solid State Drive (Windows OS Drive)
  • Western Digital Blue 500GB 7200 RPM SATA 6 Gb/s 16MB Cache Desktop Hard Disk Drive
  • Hitachi Deskstar 1 Terabyte (1TB) SATA/300 7200RPM 32MB Hard Drive
  • DVD-R CD ROM w/ Lightscribe
  • 6 — 140MM Case Fans (1 Corsair, 1 NZXT Blue LED, 3x White Fractal Design Fans, 1 Thermal Take)
  • RGB 2pcs 30 LEDs 50cm LED Strip Light with Multi-Function RF Remote Controller


Gallery of Images!


 Posted by at 8:05 pm

Repainting Chewbacca A SOLO Star Wars Story

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May 242018

….and I’m back! Yes.. with the release of SOLO and the new Black Series Young Chewbacca (190 yr/old) I thought I would repaint him.. so.. without further banter.. I give you.. “Before” and “After”..


 Posted by at 5:06 pm